Hello!
I am Helen – aka The Avalon Faery – from Derbyshire in the Midlands of England, and since I was a little girl I have been interested in Faery, magic, and all things supernatural.
Everything from vampires to angels, tiny flower faeries to the energy of Unity, ghosts to dragons to unicorns, and everything else that was part of the esoteric/spiritual/magical realms. I was fascinated and would read and research as much as I could about everything I could!
As I have gotten older I have learned more and still continually seek for answers to what makes up the world, what makes people who they are, and how we can all lead useful, and wonderful, lives.
Experiences…
I was born on a Friday the 13th and it feels like that very fact has set me on my path of experiencing more than those around me from the moment I was born.
Whilst being constantly informed that Friday 13th is an unlucky day I was always at odds with this. I never encountered any bad luck on this day (no matter what month it was in) and indeed I frequently encountered good luck. This was likely the reason I never believed anything that “everybody knows” and went looking for my own answers.
As a child I had an imaginary friend – who I now realise was a Faery spirit. She was visible to me as another little girl who carried a doll and she went everywhere with me. I would make family members set a place at the table for her, expect a seat to be left for her in the car etc., and would hold conversations with her anywhere and everywhere, as though everyone could see her.
Her favourite thing to do was to be outside exploring my Grandmother’s (paternal) wild garden – we would spend hours in amongst the wildflowers and rows of vegetables, exploring the greenhouses, and making friends with the bees, butterflies, and other insects/animals that enjoyed the wild garden with us.
She was my friend and Faery guide, and very likely the reason I was not afraid when I had other experiences.
Experiences such as the strange man that appeared out of my cupboard, crossed my bedroom, and sat on the windowsill of my childhood bedroom… This man turned out to be my Grandfather (maternal) who had passed away shortly after my first Christmas.
Experiences such as the woman that would “fly” around outside my bedroom window on moonless nights and scratch at the glass with her ridiculously long, sharp fingernails… I never did find out who she was. When I talked about this woman to some friends at school one of their mother’s asked my mother to tell me not to tell any more “stories” as I was giving her daughter nightmares.
Experiences such as the shadowy figures that would sometimes come and sit on the foot of my bed and tell me tales from their life and times. Some of these likely sparked my interest in Avalon myths and other historical times that captured my imagination (from ancient Egypt to Robin Hood and everything in-between / either side / before & after).
All of these experiences (and many more) were never frightening to me – they were just a part of life.
Loss & Broken Connection…
Somewhere along the journey life got in the way and my experiences slowed own and, although they never really stopped, I would go for long periods without a connection and my imaginary friend no longer appeared to me.
I had something of a difficult childhood, with many various traumas, and had to take on various caregiving roles that meant much of my energy had to go into the human task of survival. This separated me from my connection to “other” things as I had no energy left for that area of my life.
Yet I was still looking for answers, still searching for meaning, and still very aware that there is more….
I studied law and psychology at university searching for knowledge and ways in which to help others to deal with the traumas of living this existence.
As I got older and began to understand more about the traumas I had suffered, and the healing began to start, all I wanted to do was to regain my connection, help others, and create a more wonder-filled natural way of life.
Reconnection…
I began searching for how to heal myself and, as often happens, I regularly had to take one step forward and then several steps back. It has not been easy, and I still have bad times when I feel I am back “at square one”, but the journey to my reconnection has strengthened me.
I have learnt a lot about many different aspects of magic, religion, spirituality, psychology, morals, law, esoteric concepts, and all manner of other ideologies.
I have made mistakes, given my energy away in the wrong places to the wrong people, had negative experiences while learning discernment and protection, and found myself in battles I never expected.
Yet I have rebuilt my connections, made new ones, and met some fabulous people and entities/beings along the way!
The Journey Continues…
So why am I telling you all of this…?
Well, now that I have put in “the hard yards” I would like to help others.
Those other travellers who feel lost and alone, as though they are walking through a thick fog that clouds all senses…
I would light the candle in the window that guides those travellers to a place of rest, community, and healing, as one very special person did for me. They can then light their own candle and together we can light the world!
If you have read this then I hope that you have found a little of whatever you were looking for. Thank you for joining me and allowing me to walk this part of the journey with you.
I hope you will continue on the path with me as we explore the areas of the world that are often overlooked! I hope to see you next time – on the next step!
